I am consistently amazed what God is putting in my life as my "new" mission field becomes clearer and clearer. People and circumstances, when viewed through the lens of how God is working in and through my life, go from being boring/mundane to HOLY COW EXCITING! I can honestly say that I'm more excited to be here in the States now than I was when I first returned from Nica.
(Note: That's not to say that I don't have moments of wishing for the simplicity of my life in Nicaragua, or even the expected unpredictability of foreign missions and culture. No, I quite miss it in many many ways.)
Lately I've been talking through email to Kayla at AIM. I met Kayla at training camp way back in September, and then saw her once or twice after that. She is in charge of leadership training for Real Life teams that go out (the 2-3 month trips for college-age kids), and had contacted me to ask if I would still be interested in leading future teams. However, AIM is looking for more of a long-term commitment, along the lines of two years. I would be in and out of the States; a few months here, a few months in... who knows what country? While that sounds like a fantastic opportunity (and adventure), I believe that God has me here for now; PA needs to be my "home base" and I refuse to doubt that again. So, although I wanted to say "YES YES YES sign me up!", I couldn't. I thought that was the end of it.. but God of course is full of surprises. She told me more about their Ambassador trips, which are for highschool and college-age kids and range from 1 week to 1 month.
How amazing would that be? And how perfectly that seems to fit with what God is currently doing in my life! But I am taking my time on this because I've learned (okay, I am learning, and rather slowly) how much chaos and stress I bring on myself when I try to beat God to the future. How wrong on so many levels, to think that I could possibly know better than my creator, or that there can be any joy in making my own decisions and holding them up for His approval. So I am fighting the desire to jump on this latest opportunity just to have some sort of "clear direction and goal" in my life.
No matter where I am next, I trust that God will use me to impact others. Honestly, that part of trusting Him with my future isn't so hard for me anymore. Other areas of life though... well, you know.
(Note: That's not to say that I don't have moments of wishing for the simplicity of my life in Nicaragua, or even the expected unpredictability of foreign missions and culture. No, I quite miss it in many many ways.)
Lately I've been talking through email to Kayla at AIM. I met Kayla at training camp way back in September, and then saw her once or twice after that. She is in charge of leadership training for Real Life teams that go out (the 2-3 month trips for college-age kids), and had contacted me to ask if I would still be interested in leading future teams. However, AIM is looking for more of a long-term commitment, along the lines of two years. I would be in and out of the States; a few months here, a few months in... who knows what country? While that sounds like a fantastic opportunity (and adventure), I believe that God has me here for now; PA needs to be my "home base" and I refuse to doubt that again. So, although I wanted to say "YES YES YES sign me up!", I couldn't. I thought that was the end of it.. but God of course is full of surprises. She told me more about their Ambassador trips, which are for highschool and college-age kids and range from 1 week to 1 month.
How amazing would that be? And how perfectly that seems to fit with what God is currently doing in my life! But I am taking my time on this because I've learned (okay, I am learning, and rather slowly) how much chaos and stress I bring on myself when I try to beat God to the future. How wrong on so many levels, to think that I could possibly know better than my creator, or that there can be any joy in making my own decisions and holding them up for His approval. So I am fighting the desire to jump on this latest opportunity just to have some sort of "clear direction and goal" in my life.
No matter where I am next, I trust that God will use me to impact others. Honestly, that part of trusting Him with my future isn't so hard for me anymore. Other areas of life though... well, you know.
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